I've come to realize...

So today I filled out a survey today on myspace entitled, I've come to realize, so here are the things I've come to realize...
I've come to realize that...
People are rude and inconsiderate
People hardly ever care as much as the say they do
People say they lie for my benefit when they really lie for their own
I am too sad for my own good (dark and twisty)
I let other people have too much control over me
I show my emotions way too much
I love to pretend
I miss dance more than anything
I need dance to keep myself sane
I am too confused to make my own decisions, but too stuborn to let others make them for me
I hate that my mom can make me feel so insecure, even though she loves me and never means to
I hate that all I do with my dad is fight
I hate how much I love the church, but how much I want to hate it
I hate missions and that they take the people I love away
I hate how I always only see the good in people, and always end up trusting the wrong people
I hate that all my relationships sucked, and the one that was good had to be bad after it was over
I am totally and completely in love with Spring Awakening
I am going to miss people here more than I let on
I am so sick of people treating me like crap
I am so tired of always coming in second to Tawny
I'm not sure if Disney is for me
I am so sick of the fact that I let people treat me like crap
I take apologies too easily
I wish I could get angry at people
People are more two faced than they let on
Sometimes the people who love drama the most are the ones who claim to hate it
People lie
People break promises
It hurts worse when people break promises than when they cheat
I over analyze everything
I can't sleep without texting someone to tell them I love them, most of the time it's Kyle
I'm getting way close to my sister in Arizona
My mom suggested me moving to Az instead of Florida, and I'm actually considering it now
I'm not confident at all
Sometimes I hate myself
I feel so alone, even when I'm surrounded by people
The friends that I take from granted are the only ones who really care, Casey that means you!!!
Sometimes the person I trust the most is on the wrong side
People are so different than I thought
I've lost sight of myself
and I hate my life most days...
kinda sucky I know... but it's true